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the alone i wanted was to have slipped my referents
what's there is not a figure but a few lines & a sense of figure
then what
was that delicate seeing, already i can't resee it
who is there when i'm not
i am the shell of it
i want to see
it
bonnard : to show all one sees on entering a room
birds seemed tossed up out of them
trees turned up undersilver their
feelings
'knowledge is similar to an enclosed but active body of water'
in the garden cold
under the sumac
roofer's debris laid down in fallen leaves
telling leah this summer's research
sky says mom is this like an eclipse?
it's an eclipse of the clouds, sky
fear, the intention cd go to the morning & more
firmly on, you,
anguish, tuesday, knowing what
to write down, firmly knowing,
wishing writing down about not knowing,
out to the white light has green leaves shining down
from it, somewhere loving fear,
all the stirring, wind down
thru,
back room work
green notebook
looking for local country notes what i find
is descriptions of life before birth
that's all i was collecting
ie having left it, the country i left
is that.
it compiled structure
the equations, conversions, the math i cd read
fr how, if i've solved them, the clues are distorted
her knowing geometry is from the experience of growth
the way it's looking like a closed system
a fright
as if by following myself w/o resistance as
i have been the method & material found
in the same way w/o feeling 'will'
i have found my way into a closed universe
immediate answer
was that the lever is here, the carat of pressure in the
attention making the sentence
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